9.07.2025

Crystal Lake

Hair stuck 

to my sweaty four-year-old forehead

after running around that smoky room

full of men with half-full Bud cans

in a building since demolished

my father was somehow

the president 

of the local fish & game club

though he'd only downed one deer

and had recently moved

to the hamlet.


I caught a baby snapping turtle

its shell like a walnut 

in the same pond where

he broke a hole in the ice

and planted our family

Christmas tree one winter

trying to save what was doomed.


"I went fishing there one last time,"

he said in passing, 36 years later.

"They're busting the dam to build houses."


Our pains are present

but different

gold in a brass age

undiagnosed.


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